It hurts when they speak of you because then I have to remember that your gone,

but it hurts more when they don't speak of you because I want them to remember

that you were here.

Sometimes I find myself feeling bitter, bitter because "why me?" "why my son", what did I do wrong? what could I have done differently? when will the hurting stop? bitter because things go well for others.

I don't like what I feel and I ask God to help me thru this. I just have to take it day by day, it's not easy.

I find comfort reading and knowing that others are going threw some of the same feelings,

Some of the comments people make are hurtful.

Not…