Nothing much going on other than I am tired today but I know you know that already. I don't know why I am not sleeping this week. I don't know why my soul is so restless this week. I feel like I should be doing something but I don't know what. It's sort of weird and I don't quite understand it but I feel something.
I love you and I miss you dearly. You knew and understood me so well. When I look at Nah'zaire I only pray I can be half the Mom to him… Continue
Added by Tamarah1271 on April 29, 2011 at 8:34am —
Mommy, I love you more each day. I miss you terribly. I need you but GOD wanted you ... Rest peacefully my "Ladybug" in HIS presence.
You were the best mother anyone could ever have, you were so loving, thoughtful, strong and you were everything to me. I hope I can someday be as great as you!
always your baby girl...
Added by Tamarah1271 on January 28, 2010 at 8:34am —
Today I am going to see a hand surgeon because I have developed De Querviens tendonitis in both hands.... I have actually had it for 2 yrs. but it's getting worse and now I need to make a decision.
I realized other than having my son that if I decide to have the surgery my Mom will not be here to comfort me. I won't be able to go and lay in bed with her and be the big baby I always was in her presence.
My sister has been like a mother to me. We were so young when my Mom… Continue
Added by Tamarah1271 on January 22, 2010 at 8:30am —
Today I need my Mom... i just want to talk to her and tell how much I love her. Today I just want to be in her presence so I feel a little sad.
As I am typing I am thinking of some of our happier times and it's making me laugh so hard inside. We were all so silly and funny at times. I will get through this day... just knowing my Mom loves me and GOD loves me too. Together they are pushing and encouranging me to smile and laugh today. I know she does not want me wallowing over her… Continue
Added by Tamarah1271 on January 21, 2010 at 8:30am —
Mommy I love you and miss you more than tears, or words can ever describe. You were everything to me and without you I feel so lost but I feel you watching me and encouraging me to move forward .... thank you!!
Today I feel a little better, thanks to this forum. I am wondering why I did'nt think of joining sooner but I guess I wasn't ready for any kind of help. I felt I needed and could deal with this on my own. I have now opened my heart and mind to allowing others to help me. Here… Continue
Added by Tamarah1271 on January 20, 2010 at 8:13am —
Today I sit and think, wow I made it through to another day. Is it any better than yesterday, No but I made it. Each day I look forward to the next as I feel it may be a little better than the last. If I am lucky maybe it will be the day i loose my memory and forget the past. I know I have a small chance of that happening but If it did then I would forget the pain I am in. I guess then I would forget some of the wonderful things that happened after my Mom's death, like the birth of my son in… Continue
Added by Tamarah1271 on January 19, 2010 at 12:00pm —