Who am I? How did this happen? This wasn't part of the plan.
I will soon face the 9th month since my husband died as the result of an auto accident.
I have found that I can face life without him but I don't like it.
I don't like it that I now have people call me "Miss McCormick".
I don't like it that I have to face life without him by my side.
I ache to hear his voice, laughter, comforting words, feel his hug, and even hear him clear his throat again.
I'd love to show him the flower garden I worked on to honor him and the things I have done to spruce up the yard. He would be happy about that - he took such good care of the lawn.
I wish he was here to help me face this skin cancer and all the upcoming surgeries I must face.
I wish he could be here to see the arrival of his new little grandson that is going to join our family on October 20th, 2011.
I wish I could see his reaction knowing our son and daughter-in-law want to honor him and name our little grandson David after him.
Things I'd love to tell you:
Will our new little grandson resemble you?
I hope he has your sense of humor and your kind heart; I loved that you were so masculine yet had a heart of compassion.
I miss you so much - you were a part of my life from the time we were young kids (ages 8 and 9) and we grew to love each other.
I realize now that our relationship was very unique - we were childhood friends and shared so many memories. Being able to share 36 years of marriage still doesn't seem like it was quite enough.
You always made me feel loved. Yes we had our moments (every couple does) but I know without a doubt that I was able to know what love is and loved being able to see it coming from your eyes.
I look forward to the day we meet again - until then keep sending your love to me with little surprises along the way and keep putting in a good word for us - I know God is with us and will carry us but the mountains seem so hard to climb - especially without you with me.