Wow its been awhile. 16 months now since my brother passed away. I suppose on a daily basis it is easier, but overall my grief is so strong and present. I find it hard to accept that I will not see him again until I pass too. Time doesn't seem to make a big difference where the heart and grief are concerned. I miss him everyday and would give anything to have him back. Some people told me 16 months ago I would never be the same. I am not and probably wont be. The bubble i was living in seemed to make time stand still for almost a year. I felt like everything was changing and moving as it should, but I was just stuck. Having support of people I know understand my process is pivitol for me. It is so hard to explain to people that I am not okay and ALL BETTER 16 months later. I recently connected with my other sibling about losing our brother. It has taken this long for him to really talk about it. That is a blessing.