while i was at ecstatic dance on sunday i had a moment of clarity. I realized vicky's death caused a shift in my life and others. My mother adopted her dogs bringing a newfound happiness and purpose to her life. I feel vicky is released into the cosmos and her love is shining on me like a true godmother. After she died i learned more and more about all her accomplishments and honors. I was so surprised because she never mentioned them to me. She didnt brag, instead she let others shine in their lives. I feel a sense of grace and peace at times and I know she wouldnt want me to be sad everyday. I am trying to integrate this loss into my life and i know it is a struggle. vicky my madrina god bless you pammie.