Today, I will be kind to myself. I will let myself be lazy and without a to-do list. I will take a break for the constant focus on things-to-do and places-to-go that keep me distracted from my pain. I will play the piano and let my mind wander to memories that make me cry. I will remember that I enjoy playing the piano because my mom made sure I had lessons as a kid. I will let myself cry because I need to when I miss my mom and mother-in-law and father-in-law, wishing I could give them a call tonight to wish them a Happy New Year. I will pray and talk to God about how my heart breaks when I long to see them again and talk to them. I will write this blog post because it makes me remember my love for them, cry and let out a bit of the hurt I tend to hold in. I will remind myself it is good to cry and not hold in all the pain all the time.