I was wondering if anyone share what I am going thur , My mother has been deceased for over 20 years . I was a rather little person . It did not affect me too much than, but I must say today after so many years I am very much affected . I often wonder about the what -if's and the what would's be . I do not have a close relationship with my siblings and that bothers me as well , its like I feel empty and I was wondering is this natural ? because it is not a good feeling .