Today's subject is grief. Been thinking about this a lot lately and can't seem to get a handle on it. I just have never been so low. I know at times I feel a little normal but for the most part I am just sad. What is the proper way to grieve? I don't know. Somedays I can laugh about the silly things he done as a child and other days it kills me and brings me to tears just seeing his picture. How does one get over this. I know I have read all the grief process and seems like non apply to me. I just feel like I am nuts and my dreams are out of this world. When do you start remembering all the good stuff. My poor son suffered a lot. Chemo burnes on his body to the point he couldn't walk soon he slipped into a coma and then kidney failure and then called away. I can't say my son die#. He was called away the d word just don't compute or apply to my son. I don't know I think it is just my way of shutting out what my heart knows. I can't do this. I love my kids and I can't except the fact one of them is gone. How does a parent suppose to live with this? It isn't fair God should have taken me first.