Still missing my grandson who took his own life the end of August. Have nightmares about him all the time and wonder if there is anything I can do to change this. Think I am still feeling guilt as he had lived with me for the past 7 years and been my constand companion since my husband died four years ago. He was a young man who had a great job, many "toys" which he had earned, was planning to buy my home and share it with his wonderful girlfriend. He had been having panic attacks for 2 weeks, saw a doctor, counselor and even went to the ER at the hospital - all proved worthless. His Dad and I still feel the guilt, if I had stayed closer to him, if, if, if. Help, please.