I thought it was suppose to get easier

I thought as time went by it was suppose to get easier. Why is that it seems so much harder? I was cleaning around the house and came across the burp cloth my mom made for her future grandchild. (I'm not pregnant she just wanted the kids to have something from her). I about had a panic attack. It hit me like a boulder that I will never again see my mom. I will never hear her voice. I will never get a hug or crazy text from her. I had to take triple my dose of lorazapam just to be ok. I slept all day Saturday. I mean literally all day. I got up at noon, watched a movie with my husband and fell asleep until 9pm. I just don't see the point in anything anymore. I feel so lost and alone. She was what held our little family together.

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Comment by VLynne on February 8, 2010 at 9:23pm
Dear Michelle, I'm sorry about the pain you are feeling. Although, you are missing her deeply...she would not want you to not go on. She would not want you to give up. You are not alone! If you believe in faith...trust and have faith that your pain will be healed in time. You can hold your Mom close to you in your heart and know that although she is not physically here on this side, that doesn't mean that she is gone. Your love and memories will keep her alive within your heart forever. Focus on the good times and remember the love. If your Mom was a strength in your family; then know that you have that strength within you also to keep going, keep living and keep loving. Take care and may Gods peace be with you as you heal.
Davitta

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