Is just coming up. I lost my younger brother last Feb 21st. He was only 27. A passenger in a vehicle when both he and the driver fell asleep. My sisters and I have been trying to make sence of the accident, as if maybe we could understand if they had been drinking, or had drugs in their systems. Not like that would be alright, but would make some sort of sence, something BIG to blame. I guess personally I feel jipped. Having lost both my parents at 21 I raised my brother and younger sister until he was 18. It's kinda like what now? Why this? Really WTF!
I've dealt with losing my mother, yes I think of her often, almost every day. But for some reason, I'm having a very hard time with this one. I still cannot erase my brothers' cell number from my contact list in my phone or his e-mail in my computer ( ??? ) its not like he is coming back! I still read and re-read the accidant reports online. Why am I torturing myself?