[ Draft ]I can't believe I have really made it through. All the firsts are over and done with. This year has gone by so fast, yet it feels as if you have been gone forever! I miss you so much, babe. There are so many "if only's" that run through my head...If only you didn't roll the sled, if only you came home earlier that day, if only you had never gone snowmobiling we wouldn't be in this place today. We'd be living our lives the way we always thought we were meant to. I miss what was yet to be. We had so many plans and dreams that will never be realized; that is really hard to take some days.
I love you with every fiber of my being...I miss you even more.
Stay close by my side...I need to know you're there.
I love you so much....Always and Forever!!