feeling overwhelmed

i lost my husband on march 27 2010. then i lost the only grandpa i ever knew on may 16 2010. we have 8 kids and i just feel so lost.im doing every thing im suposed to do ,work, taking care of the kids, taking care of the house, and the animals i do write in a journal when i feel i need to and i read the bible when i can.but i do pray every night.i'm very spiritial and trying to give it all to god to handle for me but not too good at just being quit and letting someone else take the reins. also i think it goes, god helps those who help themselves but now i have to move with almost no money and i dont know how or where to turn or what to do. i cant stop crying!!!!!! just when i think im about to get through 1 day without crying here it comes.i feel like i should be stronger than this for my kids.yes i miss my husband he is my heartbeat and now that is torn out but i have to go on for the kids but how can i if all they ever see me doing is crying.i dont know how all of you feel about being spiritial but i do feel him he does little things that let me know hes here and most of the time that helps me get thru the day.but sometimes my missing him overrules everything else.

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Comment by Hurting on May 24, 2010 at 11:33pm: Mischell you both look so beautiful together. May God give him peace and you the strength to deal with everything. Because it is a fact that we who left behind have to deal with the grief and all the unfinished tasks. You would have to be strong for your children. It's okay for you to grieve as you have lost your other half. Your children are the ones that will help you cope this time of your life. Will keep all of you in my prayers tonight.

Comment by mischell on May 24, 2010 at 11:18pm: well one of my problems anyway

Comment by mischell on May 24, 2010 at 11:18pm: thank you connie,i'm 36 and jerry was 39.my problem is trying to help the kids deal with there grief they are all going thru it so differently.

Comment by Connie on May 24, 2010 at 9:43pm: Mischell, May God Bless you and your 8 childen. Somehow God will get you through this. He will take care of you and the children. By the picture, you both look so very young. I am not sure that the crying will ever go away. You will be strong for the children and they will help you to get by. May God Bless you and your children and we will remember you in our prayers.