going on here is new to me. i find the days being harder to deal with my mothers death. i need something to help me.
although i have alot of friends and family i still find it to be extremely difficult. i visit my mother weekly at the cemetary to bring flowers and i find my self crying hystericaly there. i feel that she is there and i can talk with her . but is this helping or hurting me? i ask myself how am i going to go on without her? and at times i feel how can i go on without her?i know i will and i have to because of my responsibilities for my own family. my children need me. i feel that my heart has been broken. my mother was my supporter in everthing thing that i have done in my life. my success at my career. she assisted me with daily life decisions and obstacles and always giving me advise saying you will work through it now and you will later. so is time passing by going to mend my broken heart or is is going to make me miss my mother more?