my mom committed suicide 3 yrs ago . She let a train run her over right by the tracks where i went to high school. I was 24 when it happened. i just turned 27 . i want to some day 4 give her for leaving me but I'm so very angry at her and at the same time i miss her like crazy. i think that's what messes with my head so much. i don't like thinking about it because it makes me so freaking mad. I need to start healing my heart and would really like some guidance. i always think about her and Afton wonder how many people have gone through this to. it sickens me the way she did it.