My husband of 18 years passed away on June 1, 2010 from cancer. He was only 40. We were married 18 years and together for 1/2 our lives (20yrs). I am having such a hard time dealing with his death. He was truely my best friend and soulmate. We did EVERYTHING together. I don't know how to live without him. Part of me just wants to die and the other part of me is already dead. I cry all the time and there is this pain in my heart that is so unbearable. People say in time the pain will get better, but for me it only gets worse. It seems so unreal that he is gone. I miss him so much!