Richard was so full of life. He passed on 11/4/15 after 4 mos of battling stomach cancer.  WHY didn't I push him more years before to get checked more thoroughly at the DR.  I said to him years before that he didn't look right.  He jokingly replied "oh well maybe I am dying."  Well sadly he was right.  I told him for years that sleeping 12 hours a day was not normal and I thought he was just depressed.  We were so busy working and just trying to make it in life that we missed the fact that YES he WAS dying of cancer.  When we found out it was all too late.  ALL TOO LATE!  WHY WHY WHY?  Will I really look back and be thankful to have met him or will I always look back and think it just would have been easier if I went with him.