It has been 8 long months tomorrow and the coldest and worst winter in Alberta since 1974 the year you were born. The weather has kept us inside allot and it really doesn’t matter because I am numb from missing you. With the snow melting I heard the sound of the first motorcycle revving up and my world stood still. I truly couldn’t breathe as I knew if you were here it would have been you. I am petrified as we enter spring knowing the sounds of these bikes will be hourly. I miss your daily texts and your laugh. I miss seeing my grandchildren. I hate the fact that your sister is graduating this June and you are not here. I know how proud you were of her. She grieves immensely for you hun and I just have to let her grieve at her own pace. This world without you in it is so very quiet. There is no colour without your smile and tilt of your head as you laugh. Anna has not let us see your children as she wants to move on with her life without ANY of your family involved. And move on she did............ I did see lawyers and went to court but I know how much you hated fighting and this would be a fight. She would make our lives difficult and said we could only see them with her present. I would not agree.
Funny how I feel your presence when something big has happened in my life. As always you were and still are there for me.