My church has given me permission to divorce my family. They believe i should be over his loss. I miss him so much. So i spend my holiday time with my husbands family who help remeber the good and funny josh..now my father is dieing. My family thinks i cant deal with the
Oss of my father. But i have been watching him the last 10 years. I cant let go of my sons things because i feel it would be disrespectful to him. Sometimes i wish it were over as no one can possible understand the pain i feel. We had so many things we were going to do. I feel i have let him down by putting things off. I thought there would always be a tomorrow.