Feeling so depressed today. Ive always been positive and was working on myself before my brother died. I just count the days i havent talked to him. 73. My father is also an alcoholic and I am trying to help him as i fear his story will end like my brothers eventaully. It is so hard some days to want to think life will go and be better. It does go on. Given my family situation I feel like it is time for me to have someone take care of me. ive been the parent in my family since i was a yound teen. It sso hard to grieve and try and help my family. My brother i have left has been distant , but he reached out to me. We are so close, but dont know how to help eachother. I too have been drinking too much to cope on the weekends. i feel like im being destructive and given my brother died from alcoholism it makes my guilt run deep. Just needed to type. I dont know how to move through this. one day at a time seems like forever. ll these posts here are so sad and although i feel grateful to share here.