The first anniversary of my mother's death was on May 2.
I took the day off of work and let a balloon go off of the pier. However, it ended up under the dock. I don't know if it made it to its destination, which I was hoping out to sea. I don't know what happened. I had nothing but good intentions, but it didn't turn out that way.
How does one mark a death anniversary? I didn't feel much like working because I knew that I could break down any second. Now I have to prepare for going up to New Jersey to my mom's unveling. My son is going with me and I know I'm going to break down.
In the meantime, I'm seeing my Dad so happy and dating. She makes my Dad happy, but its hard seeing her with him. They do things that my mother never did. He keeps telling me to get over it, but I don't think I will ever get over mom's death!