How r u? I don't know where to start. Its been some years since I've been on this site. Actually I think I'm doing good. It's going on 7 yrs Jan. 9th. since Richard died. Tammy I'm writing to you because I started with you.  Don't even know what a blog is. I do have some concerns if you can help me.  It seems like nothing bothers me.  I went thru so with Rich dying now its like nothing.  Am I cold hearted or what?  Please someone tell me if this is right. sometimes I remember everything. then nothing.. I do talk to Rich everyday.