I am newly widowed I have been with my husband for 10+ years until he was murdered on 8-12-12 leaving me to raise our 8yr. old & 8 week old by myself. 2 years prior my mother died from pancreatic cancer. They were both my foundation, my everything. I am so incredibly heartbroken. Though I am considered "strong" I'm constantly going through so many emotions anger, dispair, loneliness just to name a few. I feel like this is so unfair & I'm in a really bad nightmare that so want to wake up from.