I just lost my husband on November 21, 2010 in his sleep. He was a diabetic. We were married for 15 years. For those 15 years, I made sure that i did everything for him. He worked so hard that I didn't want him to work when he came home. I took care of him in and out of hospitals. I endured his pain that he felt from his diabetes due to neuropathy. I am to the point that I don't like November or December anymore. November because i lost my dad 6 years on Thanksgiving and now my husband, and December because it's my birthday and then Christmas and New Years and one to celebrate with. My mom also passed away this year in July. I am totally lost now.