Sometimes in my dreams you come to me, honey. I get a chance to talk to you and feel your arms around me and hold you again. I get to ask your opinion about things and to really talk to you. The other day I had to ask your opinion about something and you must have known how much I was missing you because you came to me right away and stayed with me for hours while I slept. We had a chance to discuss the issues that I'm facing and (real or imagined) I got the benefit of your guidance.
I realize that I'm probably manifesting you in my dreams. I also realize that I'm probably just giving a voice to the ideas and concerns that I know you would have told me had you been here. At least I know that most people would say that's what's going on. But I'm not so sure.
I can remember a particularly vivid dream about my mother after she passed away and I believed then as I do now that she had sent that dream to comfort me.
Most of the dreams I have where you're present are concerning very real issues. Just exactly the kind of thing where I would have needed your input when you were here with me. And generally, after having you in my dream I feel a little less foggy about the things that I'm supposed to be doing. You know how easily I could get distracted - we used to call it the "Dory Syndrome." It was pretty easy for me to lose focus after seeing "somethin' shiny!" But you also know how hard I've tried to work on that problem. And that's what I mean by saying that after I have a dream with you in it I do feel more focused and more resolved.
Honey, you were always so good to me and so good for me. I know you understand how terrifyingly difficult these months have been and I wonder if these dreams are your way of helping me. I hope so. I still need you so very much and I hope you'll stay with me for as long as it's the right thing to do. I love you and miss you so very much.
i feel a little less foggy