I am so heartbroken and sad to have lost my two daughters Christina and Jennifer. No one feels comfortable about talking about them and everyone just thinks I should move on but that's not totally possible. Everyday is a challenge. My heart and soul ache for them. It's been 5 years on June 18, 2009 for Jennifer and almost 6 years on October 1, 2008 for Christina. People don't understand. Some friends have just turned away from me. Thank God others stepped in. It's hard really hard. I miss my girls so much I ache. Thank God I believe in God but it is still very very difficult. I have changed inside and out and can't seem to enjoy life the way I used to. I am looking for a safe place just to talk and be encouraged and possibly encourage others who are facing the same sadness.