I lost my oldest child and only son on January 30th. Just over 3 short months ago. This weekend I will face my first Mother's Day without either my son and my mom has been gone for some time now. I feel so utterly alone! I feel as if the rest of the world has moved on, forgotten about him and forgotten my pain. When I express my pain I'm told that I have to be strong because I still have a beautiful daughter and husband who need me. This just makes me feel worse! Now I feel guilty for a pain so deep that I can hardly bear it already.
My question is WHO can I need? Who is suppose to be here for me? I'm a mom, a human, grieving mom who lost a huge part of her. I am not a super hero. I'm a mom who wants her son back yet doesn't want to cry and upset those she's suppose to be strong for, as they seem to be moving on just fine....but where does that leave me?