My Mom and Dad are both deceased, I lost my Dad July 26,2009, 5 months after that I lost my mom Jan 5,2010 they both died at age 58 Mom was overwhelmed with losing my father that she died from cardiac arrest which was brought on by constant stress.Sometimes I feel like Im in a nightmare! their deaths were so sudden they were healthy, they were very good parents even in my adulthood and my life centered around them cause I don't have kids. They were married for 32 years. My mom's mother is still living I have not heard from her, she didnt even call when mom died she attended the funeral but didnt hug me or anything! not even a comforting word.My own grandmother refused to get out at the burial cite, she said they were only going to say a few words and put Mom in the ground! I feel abandoned!! I am overwhelmed with grief, I think i was in shock the first couple of months but now i'm really realizing this is my new reality. I don't feel like I belong in this world without them, they took a big part of me with them. My boyfriend has recently been actn cold towards me, by not calling or when I need to see him he does'nt come by i've been begging for attention to stay sane, I don't think he understands grief I know its been 8 months but I can't stop crying, I can't control how I feel. I feel like i've lost everything sadly even my will to live. I just want to be with my parents again!!! ,I just want it the way it was, Mom & Dad were all i needed, I don"t think im going to make it without them.
MAY GOD BLESS MY BELOVED MOTHER & FATHER, IF MY LOVE COULD HAVE SAVED THEM, THEY WOULD HAVE LIVED 4EVER.