Well its been 96 days now since mike my brother died. I have been in shock all over again for a week now. the emotions are so hard to keep up with. feel like im lost and like life is just meaningless. I have a beautiful 6 year old son and i love him more than words can ever say. I know i have to get it together, but it is so hard to even want too at this point. Every day i just think about my brother and why this happened. Life just seems to be so cruel. I cant take time off work and i want to just go away and grieve. Get up- work, be a mom, social life- future. Going to a mdium tonight and hoping to talk to my brother. any suggestions on shock again. I ve known for 96 days he is gone, but it is hitting me so hard now.