I thought it might be best to join a group for sibling specific since they do not have one here in DFW. My sister passed away at 34 in February after a 17 year illness.  I know, its early, there is no time on grief... I have heard it all, I am trying to deal with the fact I am so extroverted yet I cannot talk about her and leave the room when I am at home. My parents talk about her and "see signs" that she is around but that is their way of dealing with it and I don't get "signs" or maybe I am not looking. I get upset as I move on with my days because I don't think of her as often and that bothers me. I have a time remembering her voice, that bothers me more. I wish I had more time, I would have stayed home longer at Christmas if I knew time was going to be shorter than expected. I wish I recorded her voice so I could hear it again. I work long hours and keep so busy that I don't have to deal with it. I am going home at Christmas to see my parents but I don't want to talk about her. Maybe I am wrong. I don't know...