On April 3,2013 I lost the hero in my life, my father.  I am still dealing with the lost and every day  is a new stuggle with accepting this void that is left behind.  My father and I were very close and I hold no regrets or hard feeling about him. For as I gave his ulogy, I commented on how he was a kind, strong,understanding,guiding and loving man. He and my mother would have been married 50 yrs this October. It is sad to see her without her partner, soulmate. I live right next door to them so I was always having coffee, reading the morning paper and spending time dinning out. I feel like I am holding strong for my children, my mother and my sister. I really want this hole in my heart to mend. I feel guilty when I smile or laugh at something silly. I feel bad when I reach for the phone to call him and know that he will no answer.  I know that God had a speical plan and are putting us on this path that we should walk,but it seems like I am just functioning. I feel like I am out of my body and in a dream. I keep thinking that I will wake up and this nightmare will end. I am a very spritual person, and I know that time will heal the pain. I also lost my brother-in-law in January. Both these deaths took men that were so kind and talented. I ask  the question as to why? Why them? Why now? I know that they are together having the coffee and working on projects up there in Heaven. I have two wonderful guardian angels watching over me. I just ask for the pennies to keep surfacing and sometimes a little light to help guide me out of this tunnel. I love and miss you both. I talk to each of you every day. I hope that you can hear me. Bob, watch over your ball player and little wee-wee. Todd, I am waching over Chrissy for you. She is doing ok. Were all are doing ok.

Views: 85

Comment

You need to be a member of LegacyConnect to add comments!

Join LegacyConnect

Latest Conversations

DontWannaDisclose joined Lorie Petrey's group
10 hours ago
Joan Mosher posted a status
"My brother passed away on September 26th 12 Days after is 52nd birthday and I'm tough time"
19 hours ago
Profile IconJoan Mosher and DontWannaDisclose joined LegacyConnect
19 hours ago
CAB joined Lisa W's group
Sunday

Community Guidelines

Please be respectful of others. For more information, read our Community Guidelines.

Follow Legacy

© 2021   Created by Legacy.com.   Powered by

Badges  |  Report an Issue  |  Terms of Service