I lost my wife Lorie, the funeral was yesterday. I've had so many emotions, it's hard to explain. I have 2 children age 8 and 9 so I've tried to do my best to comfort them. The thing is I feel quilty for trying to do things to occupy their time and help them move on. Today I took them to school to visit before going back full time next week. We spent time doing things together afterward. It just seems cold to try to do normal things. It seems like the world should stop for a while.
My wife had been sick for a long time with various things, yet this was so unexpected. We all had went out for breakfast on Saturday and Church on Sunday. The night before she past we had discussed future plans. It seems so unreal.
There are so many things that you have to do, you just can't stop. It seems so wrong to even think about.
I've talked about my feelings with others until there is nothing left to say. I just hope she knows how much I love her and miss her.
There is comfort in knowing she is now pain free and happy in her new home in heaven with Jesus Christ our Lord. She believes in Jesus as the son of God, and the Bible says "that whoever shall believe, shall not perish, but have everlasting live".
I speak of her in the present tense because our God is the Lord of the living. When someone dies in Christ I believe they are in an instances at home with the Lord.
I wish she was still here with us, but I wouldn't bring her back in the pain and sickness she endured.