I lost my little sister (48 2/14/13) and I am 51 , she took her life 3/22/13 and this was so unexpected & honestly just hard to believe we even talked about it exactly 1 month before to the day ! I was one of 1st there & had to call my dad to tell him , ( 1 1/2 yrs. ago we buried our niece to cancer , my mom had a small stroke then and she has been not doing well , now she has had another ) I am having a hard time with all this ! There is so much that has happened to me in the past 2 yrs. and now my best friend ,my sister is gone ..... Feel dead myself in ways , confused, lost and scared! Glad I found this group reading some of this at least I know for sure I'm not alone !