I woke up to a phone call yesterday October 14th 2015 on my 46th birthday to hear my father just passed away, he had just turned 70 in September. I was in such shock I couldnt speak but to say omg omg omg. My father was really never there for me when I was a kid but as I grew up we reconnected and got closer. I have always loved my father and looked forward to every year on my birthday when he would type Happy Birthday Brat Love Dad and yesterday I didnt get to see his message, He moved to Florida 15 years ago and the only way I was ever to connect with him was on FaceBook or by phone and that has always been okay with me for I had my father back and I was happy an now hes gone and I will never hear his voice again telling me he loves me and misses ...I dont know how to deal with this.
Most of my family tell me that theres nothing I can do about it and yes I do know that but the pain is unbearable knowing I will never see or hear him again, Please help me get through this.
Thank You for listening to me for I dont have anyone to cry to. To understand the pain I am feeling and how my heart is breaking .