I have been missing my Mom so much lately.This is a picture of us when I was a baby. I'm her oldest child and am now 33 years old. My Mom unexpectedly passed away on May 18, 2012 at 2:33 pm of a massive heart attack. 

Lately I have been feeling anxious, guilty, upset, and extremely sad. We all have our good and bad days when it comes to grieving, and my days have been bad so far. My Mom was such a sweet and loving woman and I often want to scream and curse at God for taking her away from me, my brother, and three sisters. No one ever said life was going to be easy and fair, but damn him. Yes, Mom is in a better place, but at one time I looked forward to watching her grow old beautifully. 

I want my Mom back...just because.