Dear Mommy,

Today is a holiday..... I am still lost without you... I am still overwhelmed with the fact that I can not call you and talk to you about.... whatever....  I am going home to my babies and I know today you would have had a great time with them... They are getting so big and although I am glad you got to meet them I know you would have really enjoyed knowing them.... Mommy I really dont know how you did it all those years... I feel so consumed by lonliness.... I will visit you again soon and try and bring a easter lily to you...  I know how you love flowers and spring is here so I want ot be the first one to bring you some.... Today is a holiday and I am so lost with out you....  BKS.... Love you