I was at the grocery store today and as I was picking up a bag of dog food I overheard a young man talking to another shopper. I heard him say "Yeah I was really lucky", and I kind of froze momentarily. Sure enough, he was telling her about a recent car accident he had been in. I gathered my things as quickly as I could but as I walked by them I heard hi say "Man, when those airbags went of.....". It took everything I had not to lose it in the middle of the grocery store. My son, who was probably about his same age, was not as lucky. My son died. Why couldn't that have been my son, telling someone about how lucky he had been? I finished my shopping as quickly as I could, and of course who ended up bagging my groceries, but the same young man. For a moment I thought how glad I was for his family, that he must have a mom and I was glad that, whoever she was, she still had her son and that he was ok. But I also couldn't help feeling cheated - why me! Why my son?! I made it to the car ok and put my groceries away, but I cried all the way home. It's those unexpected moments that knock you down the hardest sometimes, because you're just not prepared. It's like you've been punched in the gut out of the blue and left gasping for air. I hope that, with time, it's not as hard.....

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Comment by patty adkins on August 26, 2012 at 9:37pm

i am always running in to people to,and they ask me the same thing to,it is so hard,i just lost my 4 year odl gandson,july 29 2012.i dont no how to live with out him.i cried all the time,today in church there was a baptim.it was so hard to be happy for than,i just pray and take it one day at a time. prayer for you.  patty


Comment by Amelia R Chavez on August 26, 2012 at 7:11pm

Hi Jill you know i had tried to avoid the stores when my son passed in no matter where i went i was always running in to people that were friend,people that just worked in the stores and people that knew my son.It was hard every time they would ask what happened?There w one day I said how as a ex girl friend of my son (hated her so much she only used him) that would ask me every time How are you?Finally i looked and said to her How in the hell do you think I am my son is dead!!how do you think i feel. I can just drive and turn on the radio and a song will come on and remind me of him anyway just wanted to let you know we will always have them moments. Hugs and prayers to you.

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