After 13 years together my beloved Alberto died on Aug 16. He was a shy but very charming man who loved his family and who loved me.
I have lots others whom I loved dearly parents, a nephew, and best friends. No loss prepares you lose the one to whom you come home every night. He will no longer kiss me when I walk through the door at the end of the day. He will no longer tell me simply "get some rest" as I head up to bed. He will no longer press his cold feet against me and say "let's snuggle." All that and so much more is gone from my life never to return.
I did not know it was passible to be so lonely or to miss someone so much.