My name is Chrissie and I am 33 years old. I have a wonderful husband and a beautiful daughter whom I love more than life, but I am struggling everyday to cope with the loss of my baby sister to type 1 diabetes a month ago. You would think that was the end of my troubles, but this is not my first sibling to die. My baby brother also died seven years ago when he took his own life. I have one sibling left and she is in another state. My late sister Kimberly was only 29 years old and the mother of three beautiful babies and she was sick for a while. I talked to her on a Thursday and 2 days later she was gone. My late brother Billy was in jail and I hadn't been able to speak to him for a couple of months because he was on suicide watch and was actually still under suicide watch when he managed to hang himself in a shower. He was only 21 years old and he was the youngest of the four of us and the only boy. I am the oldest, so losing them was like losing half of me. Pamela is the only one besides me that's left. She is 32 and has four beautiful daughters. She is a rock and nothing ever gets her down. I find myself now praying everyday that I don't lose her too. I am a very emotional person and these major losses have taken a toll on my life to the point that two years ago I tried to take my own life. I don't know how to deal with this or how to move on, so any advice is much appreciated and Thank You for taking time to read my story!