I lost my father on 1-11-11 his Name was Gabriel Loya Cano He was born on 5-25-1950 he was found on the sidewalk where he laid all night. People thought he was drunk passed out. He died of a massive heart failure. His heart valves were 70-90% blocked and his heart was enlarged a normal adult male heart is 360grms his was 510grms. he didn't know he was this sick. I never thought I'd feel all the emotions that I have felt from him dieing. Because he did not raise me and all my life I never forgave him. He has lived in the same town as me. but I can count on 1 hand how many memories I have of him and I. His funeral was on 1-28-11 and all the arrangements and decisions were left up 2 me and my sister since he wasn't married. I ended up doing what ever my Grandpa's wishes were. Because I wanted to respect his feelings and wishes. well I want my dad to know I forgive him. I only wish I had done it while he was alive so we could have had a father son relationship like we should have had. That i will be forever sad for.