I lost my partner, soul-mate, wife, my heart, on October 17, 2009. We were together for 29 years(almost 30); 15 of those years were filled with breast cancer. I am still lost and have so many days that I feel I cannot go on without her. We had very little friends when we moved and no support. I am still in counseling and continue to go, but as far as other support, I have none--No family and "conditional friends." This past holiday was the 3rd one without her. It was the hardest so far. The first was numb, the second, was better; however, this holiday comes with the shattering reality that I will never see her again. I have no one to share these feelings.