April 17th 2010 my 30 year old daughter passed away in her sleep for no apparent reason. she had health issues but they were not fatel,,, I have so many questions for her and although I push myself to move on with my life I have an ache that never leaves. she was born Jan 4th 1980 yesterday was her birthday christmas this year was hard as I lost my sister christmas day last year and then my daughter just a few months later, I tryed to make it as normal a christmas as I could for my grandaughter and put on my smile for all to see but im dying inside,,, I am so lonely,,, so sad,,, so mad,,,, I miss her soo much. I know I will never be the person I was before she died,,, but not struggling to be something close in the mean time, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gVbE0O_g3B8. This is one of my video tributes to my beautiful girl.