I have been a psychotherapist since 1975. I have spoken to many people who came to me about how the head and the heart are not always in sync. I am living that in real time these days. My head knows that Rose is dead and not coming back but my heart refuses to accept it. I get in my car, turn on the radio and start crying. I tell her how much I miss her all the time. I went to a concert we both would have enjoyed and all I could think about was how much she would have liked it.The waves just keep coming and I plow through somehow in a way that is bewildering to me. I have wonderful friends and her family has been marvelous to me. However, a hole the size of the Grand Canyon is very difficult to fill. I am so grateful for having found this site.