I lost my husband suddenly on 3/2/2016. He was home with my son when he started coughing up blood. My son called the ambulance and he went into cardiac arrest on the way to the hospital. The doctors couldn't save him. He did have health problems he needed double knee replacement and shoulder surgery. He also suffered from CRPS. We found out later the reason he was coughing up blood he had a pulmonary embolism. He was only 49 and I 38. We were together for 20 years. We have 2 children a son 18 and a girl 13. He was the love of my life and I have Ben crying myself to sleep ever since. I don't know how to go on I feel lost. We are going to go to family therapy and I therapy alone as well. My kids seem to be adjusting but I just can't. We did everything together and just mean everything we coached our children we volunteered together. We even went groceries together. I miss him terribly.