My dad passed away eight months ago. He battled with his sickness for a long time. I was hard to watch and help. I am the youngest of his children in only 20. I have five older siblings. When my dad got sick my mom changed some how I turned into the mom for my siblings and my mom everyone leaned on me and they still do. But the fact is I have no one to lean on I always leaned on my dad for support and now he is gone. The fact is for eight months I have been holding back my pain from losing my only friend to help everyone else and I just can't any more I need time to grieve myself but no one seems to relize that.