It has been 6 months and I am in such a rut. People believe that I should move on. I just want to cry and be still, curled up in a corner if I can, but life wont allow this to happen. I miss Ronnie even though I am so angry with him. I keep thinking about the things that made me angry that he used to do in hopes of not missing him so much but that doesn't work. He was my man for 15 years. My husband, my gift and now he's gone forever, never to return. How are we supposed to get over that. Really! I don't understand how this is suppose to happen. For a while I was able to stop taking the anxiety pills but now I find myself taking them again just recently in order to sleep at night. His birthday is coming up in 2 weeks and that is wearing on me. Does this pain ever go away on its own?