I am alone Barbara, I like it now. No-one can see this miserably sad face I have had since 4/09/10. I'm a good actress; I can put on a smile when I see someone and they're never the wiser. Since I'm always alone, I feel free to talk to Candace. It makes me too sad though. Although I do when I start crying over something petty. And everything's petty! I miss her SO much! I should've moved with; she'd be alive. Then I think, maybe it was her time to die, maybe it was destiny. I'm trying to think of answers that I'll never know the answer to until I talk to Candace once she takes me Home w/her. I know people have another existence after their body dies. That belief and my faith will make it easier. Candace and my friend's step-Dad showed me they were on the other side. I LOVE you Candace. I think Candace sees this
My son, Adam, was a very handsome boy and man. The girls flocked around him. He looked like a movie star or a model, but he wasn't egotistical. He had such charisma and charm. He saw good in everyone and was a peacemaker. We were very close. I lost my mother when I was 23, and she never got to see me get married or have children, but I know she's giving him lots of hugs and kisses now. I have a daughter that's 28. She is beautiful too, but just doesn't have the compassion that he had, but she idolized him, and I know she hurts too, but seems to hold it in, as my husband does too. He loved his momma, and I'm so thankful that God gave him to me for just a month over 30 years. My heart will always be broken. A part of me is missing. He had so many friends, the church wouldn't hold them all, and I've never seen so many distraught young people. I feel him with me at times, and dream of him. Love conquers death. The love will always be there to connect us. I love and miss you, Adam Gabriel, and you're the first one I want to see when it comes my time. <3
Barbara, I always feel better hearing from you. As you said, we've never met but your posts always made me feel a little less crazy. I'd love to hear more about Joe, our children are so alive in our thoughts and memories, and I surely feel the need to talk about Carrie from time to time. I think, other than my close friends, people generally don't know how to react, or don't say anything for fear of upsetting us. Makes it very awkward, so this has been a more comfortable spot. So talk away, I like to hear! Hugs, Martha
Barbara, I'm not very adept at this, not sure how best to use messages but it was bothering me that we hadn't heard from you. I suffer from allergies too so I can empathize with how miserable you must have been feeling on top of everything else. I hope this finds you feeling stronger, physically and emotionally, I could never have imagined how rough this journey is. Hugs to you.
Ok... I'm really new here lol. I think you'll get more than one message from me now. But, thank you so much for showing me the ropes. I have been trying to figure out how this works. I appreciate all you have to share. Take care
Hi Barbara I'm so sorry for the loss of your son Joe I have a son name Joe his 22 well I lost my beloved son Jesse on 7/12/09 goin on 4 years and I miss him everyday he was my oldest he was 28 oh how I miss him he was a very good son if there's a heaven I know he must be there maybe your Joe and him are friends well I'm here when ever you want to post or vent friend Hugs to you Alicia Jesses Mom
Thank you Barbara. I appreciate your kind words. My son was my only child and my only family too. So his passing is the passing of all the love I've ever known. Thank you for posting. We need you here too.
Barbara, so many different rules these days, sometimes this site doesn't work well, so I'll give you my email address. P3452@aol.com. I won't use the chat room, everyone from legacy from every group uses is at it's not private at all. Penny
Barbara, I have looked for the context on Thursday, I do remember writing it, but I have no clue WHY I wrote it! Thursday seems such a long time ago, what with the Connecticut shootings on Friday and everything. Where have you been, girl? Downstairs again! Hope the clean-up from Sandy is going well. People forget, and I am one of them. May tomorrow and Tuesday bring you peace and solace, and good memories of Joe. Wish I could bring Bernie to taste all your good cooking!
Thank you Barbara. This is the first time I've seen your message. I found it when I was looking for the story about Joe. I'm happy you had an Easter Sunday dinner with him. I still haven't found the article on Google.
Barbara, I feel the same way, this year I just couldn't do it, the holidays hurt to much this year. I know Mary understands and that's important to me. She sent us a beautiful butterfly that has eyes on it. I wish you a quiet and peaceful night with wonderful dreams about your son.
Barbara, Thank you for caring, I'm so sorry for the lost of your only son, Joe.
I think our pain is all the same. My life will never feel whole. I can't seem to stop myself with the thoughts of " if only ", if only, if only. Just like all Moms I could always make things better. But, not this time. I thought he was getting some well deserved rest. I try to tell myself, maybe God took him home to save him from something worst. He didn't have it easy here on earth. I cry alone. people done want to hear me. They want me a to get on with my life. After all, I'm not the only one to loose a child. Just like you and the good people on this site. My heart aches. I will face each day the best I can and someday I will be with him again. God help us all.
That must be true. Candace took so much love from me with her. Along with Mike's and her 3 little girls. Plus many other relatives and friends. I know relatitives and a friend greeted her on the other side. Her paternal grandmother couldn't wait to hava a granddaughter after all boys were born b/4 Candace. She would've spoiled her rotten! I bet she was one of the first to greet her!
Barbara, your posts (to me as well as to others) are wonderful, please know how much they mean. I know I'm lucky to get to spend time with Richie, very aware that it's really due to his dad's generosity and commitment to make sure that Richie remembers his mother. Carrie was exceptional in her looks, had a smile that lit the room. She was adopted at birth so I had nothing to do with how pretty she was. Richie favors her. He's very bright (3rd grade math work and 6th grade reading level atvage 7) but I am regularly amazed at his observations about cancer, the details he remembers, what he will and won't say. Heartbreaking and heartwarming at the same time! I hope you are safe and well, you've had enough tragedy. So weird that we, in Florida, have escaped the hurricane. Take care of yourself.
Barbara, you are such a sweet and thoughtful person, I don't know what to say. Mary's school books are still out on the kitchen able where she had school so today I am going to brave it and attempt to put them away. I am sorry for the stress that you are going through and I understand you wanting to keep it to yourself. I'm worried about you and the others on the board who are in the path of the storm. Please be careful, and stay warm. The only other thing that I can say is when you're in a place with other people closed in it makes for very close quarters and people do get on each others nerves. Sorry, I know I tend to mom people and I'm sorry.