Sorry haven't talked to you in a while. Life is the same. Problems all the time. Its that time of the year I really mis Kelly. She loved the holidays ......... How are you doing . Remember the plan for you, will talk to you this week , will call your phone.
Thanks for being there for me. Miss you and love u too........UR friend ALWAYS
Good Morning Ann,
It's Saturday and the weekend. Been thinking about Kelly and Jody today and I know they are watching over us. Maybe they are together in heaven and by the grace of God we were meant to be friends.
I just read your comments on your page. I didn't think you had been writing back to me, as I received no emails. I am so glad that you are okay. And no you have not offended me in any way. I know how you feel, remember, we know what it is like to lose our own, no one will ever know unless they have been through it. I am like you I can be very mean especially with my husband because he has not much sympathy. I have nothing to forgive you for because you have done absolutely nothing wrong. I love talking to you, so keep writing to me. These last few days my husbands sister and her kids have been here staying with us, so my mind has been somewhat occuppied. I hope you are okay, at least you have a job and friends to keep you going. I hope to find a job soon my mind is always on Kelly. Can you give me your ph #. Mine is 704-859-6247. Maybe we can talk Sat or Sun. Let me know
Thanks for the email. I honestly feel your pain, I am so sorry about Jody, I too feel with Kelly did she really shoot herself or did he help her, he mentally abused her all the time, they had been arguing all day, he let the house go in to foreclosure and wouldn't pay the bills, she was so full of anxiety my beautiful Kelly, HE killed her I know he did, he may not have pulled the trigger but he drove her to her death. She had the biggest heart and I never got to tell her how I loved her and how proud I was of her, I was wrong she begged me for my love but I kept telling her to leave him, he hit her and made her an acoholic. I too have been married 3 x's. The first ( Kelly's Dad ) cheated on me twice, the second was a cheater and a pathological liar, and the third I just married recently, so far so good.. Who knows men are all the same. I think you need to know the truth about Jody, you need answers but one thing to remember she is in a better place than we are, she has no pain, she is with the Lord and a beautiful angel at his side, and so is Kelly. One day we will be with them but until the good lord takes us we have to bear the pain. Ann I thank God I have found you to talk to. Nobody knows what we are going through except the people who have lost a child to suicide. Every day I am numb, I hurt, but nobody cares cos it is not their child. I think that God has given us a cross to bear and I dont know why. Thanks for talking God Bless you and have a good nite.
Thank you so much for replying to me. Yesterday was a really bad day for me. I just felt so much pain inside, I argued with my husband all day and I was real angry. It was my other daughters birthday yesterday and I tried to be strong for her. Kelly was her life too, only she doesnt seem to express it like me. I think I knew Kelly would have baked Jacalyn her cake and decorated for her. Kelly was like that always remembered birthdays and loved the holidays. The picture I have that I think you can see is Kelly on Thanksgiving day last year. Tell me does that look like a person is suicidal? I dont think so. That is her little boy Cole who is now 1 yr old. He lives with his Dad the man that emotinally killed my Kelly. I am thinking of joining a Grief Support Group but I have just moved from CA to NC. I dont like it here. I want to be where my daughter is buried so I can visit her. and be near my grandson. Maybe that is why I am so unhappy now. I think about her every day and I know you think about Jody. Maybe you should put her on Facebook I have facebook and so does Kelly. I miss her and it hurts to see her picture, but I have to talk to her every day.
Sometimes I feel like I am going crazy, thank God for this website and for people like you that understand. I never will conflict this pain on my worst enemy and Yes I know that Kelly and Jody are beautiful angels in heaven
Thank you for your comment. I am going through a very hard time now. This pain is tremendous every day. I go to the store and I think about Kelly, everything reminds me of her. I wonder why the people left behind have to suffer guilt and pain. Sometimes I just want to give up, but today is my other daughters birthday, she is 18 so I have to put on a brave face and act that all is ok. I am glad you and the people on this website understand the loss of a child, what pain we have to bear and they are gone. Please keep in touch with me. God bless and give us the strengh to carry on.