I don't know how long it's been since you have been back to Kansas City,MO. But in Pleasant Valley, they have one of the biggest skateparks in Kansas City. My kids were into skatebroading. And I got the name Skate-Park Mom. Cause when it was hot,I would show up with cases of cold water and pop. So I got to know the kids at the park.If Kenny was still alive, I know he would have love to go to the Pleasant Valley Skate Park. As soon as I saw Kenney's picture, I thought about all the teenage kids I know. I could see that Kenney was happy when he was skateboarding. The way he was going down that rail takes a lot of practice. I hope that up in haven there is a great big skatepark. Cause I'm sure Kenney is at that skate park.I know how much you loved your son. I also think that Kenny wouldn't want you to be hurting. Rest In
Thank you for your gracious kindness as I pray for your heart to be at peace during this season and may you and your family enjoy all of the joys of Christmas.I put up the christmas tree as I know how much my daughter loved this time of year,I be a little sad on wednesday as it is my birthday as she always was the first to wish me happy birthday & happy anniversary she had wrote down in her memory book.I wish you the best as I know there must be some great memories of Kenny at this time of year,I pray that they make you smile as much aas I did by putting up the tree.
Just to look at your son skatebroading on that rail..He looked like he was pretty good at it. I used to take my kids to the skatepark. I bet he or you had to buy many skatebroads. The kids that skatebroad some are really good at it and others just keep trying. I can tell that he was pretty good at it. I know you have loss the best thing in your life right now. But you have to keep going. The rest of your family need you more than you know. Kenny will always be with you.Maybe not in site but he's there. Rest in peace Kenny ( your mom will always love you and some day you two will meet again.)
Hi Margie,I hope this Christmas season can be a joy too you as you look at the joy you shared with Kenny at this time of year,as I say his love has not faded and will never do so,just keep all of the beauty and joy you both shared and let that lift up your heart.Be Blessed you and your family.The Preacher!!!
Hi Margie,I have to agree with you that its hard to lose someone you love more than life itself,if I had any inkling that my daughter would be brain dead 2 days after talking to her I would have tried to alter the course on nature to save her life and there are many days that go by that all I can think about is how could Kisha been save and the doctors told us tha had we been in the hospital we could not have saved her due to the magnitude of the blood that covered her brain so fast.Agony is the one thing we all share and I know that she loved me so much and she never missed telling me how much and I think that is what fuels my life to help any and all I can to understand that this is a battle we have to stand strong in because the enemy wants us to fall prey to discouragement and lose all hope when God has so much love and mercy on us that he wants us to continue on.Margie I know that no one can replace Kenny or give you the ultimate comfort of having him back but the peace that is needed will come from your heart knowing that his heart is still tied to yours whether absent or present and that will never cease and never die,there is no way I could ease the pain of your heart but I do know that the pain I feel I've had the grace of God to help me and that's because I know in my heart there's coming a day that I shall see my child's facew again and I'm gopng to keep that hope in front of me and I sing some days and cry some days but I pray every day and thank God for the time I had with her when Kisha left on April 10th 2006 I stopped and there are times now that I ask what day it is.I say to you its not easy for the preacher to live without the love of his life as it is not easy for you to live without the love of your life and you and I know something that many others don't and that is if they knew how Precious their child was they would not miss a moment to share all they could while they could,because at any moment that could be the last day they see their child and if there was a sum of money that could bring them back I know that we would do all we could to have them back in our arms because Margie the love I have and the love we all have is something that some will never know,so I agonize with you and now I know what my mother felt when my brother died after being hit by a bus when it pulled out in front of him,I used to listen at her cry and put my arms around her and she would say you just don't know how bad it hurts so now I do and my praye for you and all is that your days get better and your heart heals to the effect of you being able to make it one day at a time.Much Love the Preacher!!!
I would to go this web site www.anglesacrosstheusa.com. I sponsored my son, plus they are here in Roseville, but they travel all over the world, we had a candle light visual last december, but check it out.
you are so write again, that's three times. I have to go on for my grandson, I don't want to, when I lost my son I wanted to crawel right in that casket with him, there was no life without him, I am not sure how I have made it this far, but I know the man upstairs has my full attention, I was mad at god also, why did he take my son, my son was so loving he was a pain because his story telling usually go the best of him, but he was a good friend to everyone, and a super good dad, he was only 16 when his son was born, B is 9 now, My son has been with him since day one. What I miss the most is seeing them together. But for what ever reason, we need to live for today and love the ones that are left for us to love, I give good advice but do I follow it. I still want to crawel in a whole somewhere.
You are so write, i am living in a world that I dont want to be a part of, but I have to be a part of this world because that is what my son wants, I know in my heart he does not want me to go on being misserable, even though I want to. Every day is a struggle, I found the lord through all this I love him so much, I only wished I could of found him sooner, I ask myself if my son would still be alive if I would have? But, it was an accident that killed my son, I spend so much time crying and trying to figure out why, but I will never know why and I know I have to go on and learn ot be a better loving caring person, not that I am not, that's my problem I care about everything and this changed my whole world. My son passed in November of 2009 its so strange how some of us have age and months the same...
Wow Marggie, we also have a bit in common, I only have two boys, well actually only one now, but I so understand the relationship thing, my relationship is on the blink to, my husband is not the father of either of my childern, I mean they have the same dad, but I married my 3rd husband when my son was 16, and I lost him 7 months ago, but I understand about the energy part..
Hi Margie. wow . looks like we have a bit in common. that is neat how you had that bond also. we have a video of him when he was 3 it shows his stubborness and personality even at that young age. i wish i had taken one every year. we don't realize they can go in a blink. it is very sad. where are you we are in kentucky it is lonely here. for i wanted to get into lessons and stuff but it didn't turn out that great my daughter is doing good and that is more important than me. Carrie L
Hi Margie. thanks for writing. It is good to hear you are not as bad as at first but .I find myself fighting with myself about it there is nothing i can do now to change what happened though my mind wants to. desperately I wake up with it on my mind and go over and over and over. I know he would go on if I died. But that does not take away the pain of my son. I think that mother bond is so tight especially when you brest feed them and they are your first child. It isn't fair it isn't right and I can't stand it. but it is. there was a poem i found that was when great souls die. and it ended they existed. which they did and they existed very well. very unique. i am so sad and tormented. i really don't think i will ever feel better. my marriage is troubled and that added to the fact.... the counselor said the best thing you can give your children is happiness and honesty thanks for writing i know you know how i feel Carrie L
Hi margie i like you am suffering the pain of the loss of my child. it sucks like no other. and i feel it and re-live it and just sadness. and what ifs and whys and on and on. i take medicine at night to ease the wake up thoughts and hope they will subside. but they go on and on and on. i feel nuts. i know if i died he would go on so i try to think of that. i hear his voice and wish i could see him... i know what you are going through.. the guilt the pain the loss the never having any grandchildren never seeing his smile or hearing his laugh again it is such a huge loss .... i don't like it. carrie L
Learning to live again after the death of my son is the most difficult thing I have done in my life. Everyday is a test of my will to go on. I never could of imagined the pain that comes when your child dies. Only another parent who has gone through it can relate to the degree of pain you learn to live with.