No she will not talk to me and says the kids can't come for a couple of weeks but we will see. It really hurts that she is acting this way because I have always kept the kids whenever ask and believe me it's been alot. Her mother will not keep them like I do she say her nerves can't take it. Anyway I know she will need me long before I need her. I have been sleeping alot that's what I do when I get upset or others times I can't sleep at all. I have been getting alot of "you need to" "you should" and advise from alot of people that has never been where I am after all how can you teach some one how to read if you can't read yourself? I hope you are doing ok andyou have people around that let you grive in your own way.
I know what you mean about the holidays.I didn't do well with them before Jason's death and that is all that I have been thinking about.We always went to Jason's for Thanksgiving.He always wanted me to cook and bring it to his house and have everybody over. I don't want to think about it.I am trying to get my husband to go to his son's house I just don't feel like I can go there or any where else. Today has been a really bad day. My daughter-in-law saw something I wrote on facebook about feeling used, I was talking about something else not her, anyway she got all upset called her parents started telling her friends and would not talk to be. I called and talked to her mother and she told me what was going on and that she told the children's mother that she would keep them on the weekends and she would not have to bring them to my house at all. Needless to say I have cried all day. I never thought she would have done something like that because we have always been able to talk about anything. Anyway I know that she will get over it because she knows I was not talking about her and she will want to go somewhere and want me to keep the children.I am rambling now. I hope you have an ok rest of the day. Thanks for listening and being my friend. Cirie
Hi Jeremy's mom...Just want to let you know I am thinking about you...i know how hard every day, every minute is. Do you always notice the stickers/decals on other peoples cars now? Whenever I see one now I want to leave them a note to let them know how sorry I am for their loss. I think about how we go through each day before losing our children and never realized all the hurting parents and families who lost someone...you just never know what the person right next to you is going through....losing a child or someone close to you really changes you doesn't it. Well...keep in touch. Bless you
I don't know where to start. First my heart hurts for you and trust me I know exactly how you feel. If you are like me it makes me angry when someone tells me that but our babies were killed almost exactly the same way. My Jason was killed Feb 14th this year. He had been very ill and in the hospital for all but 8 days and had 9 brain surgeries from Dec 2,2008 until Feb13,2009. None of which caused his death. The day after he was discharged from the hosp. the last time was Valentine Day and his wife was working. He went to her work to take her something for valentine's then he stopped at the store on his way home. Jason always wore his seatbelt and so did anyone riding with him but for some reason when he got back in his suv he did not buckle up which I had never seen.He a friend of his and his friend's 5 yo were going toward home on the interstate and came to a split north to the left east to the right, they were going east when a 18 wheeler who was on his right came over on him he lost control went all the way across all north bound lanes was ejected thru the drivers window hit the guard rail and landed in the grass on the north bound side. The suv cont.moving without a driver crossed back over the north bound lanes(4) hit a concret wall and stopped. By the grace of God his friend and his little boy were unhurt. Jason was taken to the hosp. and like your Jeremy he died in surg from the same injury your son had. They told me they gave him 40 units of blood but they just couldn't stop the bleeding. He like your son lived 31/2 hrs. When I read your story it was so much like mine I cried for you because I really do know how you feel.This picture was made 6mo before he was killed. He is in the NICU holding their new baby boy. He left me 3 beautiful grandchildren and they are the reason I am living. I, like you do not feel any better today than I did Feb 14th. I cry every day most days I do nothing but sit in the chair and look out the door. I hardly ever leave the house.I do ask God to help me keep myself together when my grandbabies are here but as soon as they are gone I am the same wreck. I am sorry for going on and on but I just couldn't believe how much alike our babies were taken. Thank you for listening.
Hi Jeremys mom
My name is Brenda, I lost my son April 1, 2008, a lttle over 1 1/2 yrs. It hasn't gotten easier for me either. Michael was riding a skateboard without a helmet and went over a speedbump, hit his head and never came out of it. He was 29..a freak accident because he wasn't a skateboarder...just decided at last minute to grab th skateboard on his way out to go jogging with his roomate. It is so hard to even talk about it..I just feel so numb..I don't even know how I get through each day, go to work or just live. I am sorry about your son...so sorry!
Hello Jeremy's Mom, I just want to let you know that My Heart goes out to You. I unfourtunitly understand the Unbearable Pain that you are going through Over and Over again. Today is one of My Very Very Bad Days. The pain that I am feeling is actully getting stronger and harder to bear. Now we All have to deal with a holiday Halloween which for most is Joyous and should be - For All of us now the Holidays will never be the same. :-(
Hi Jeremys Mom,
You have come to the right place to be able to talk about Jeremy. I'm so sorry that you lost him. People in general and even many family members, just don't get it. Our lives are forever changed. No matter what good things(and there will be good things) happen, life will now forever be bittersweet because they couldn't be here for whatever those good things are. Feel free to post or email me anytime you'd like to talk. I work during the day but this is usually the first place I head when I get home. Just searching for something to try to feel. I have never been one to cry easily. My tears are usually when I'm so frustrated that there's nothing else to do. It bothers me a lot and the pressure builds up until sometimes I feel like I'm going to explode. I somehow find some relief when I'm reading about others crying for their children because inside, it's always raining. I even wrote a poem entitled that and posted it on my page. Keep coming back. We all care and love to hear about each others children. Hugs of Hope, Kathy